From: Joe Budden
“Sometimes the truth can hurt you, so I blow my cig smoke right at the Truth commercial”
Sometimes a person just needs some time alone, away from the world, away from everyone and everything. It could be a moment to reflect, a moment to unwind.
The ten-minute song is one long smoke break. Joe is able to get away and smoke a cigarette where his mind can wander, where he can think, clearly. In this case, the wandering eventually makes its way to the pen and paper. Where one would keep some thoughts to himself or herself, Joe one ups that and shares it.
He lets us know of his father’ incarceration, which is something that he’s currently dealing with, often missing his father. A young man needs his father present to help guide and shape his son. Maybe Joe knew he needed his father for that, to help build his character, to steer him away from all the problems he eventually came face-to-face with.
He shows his depression and how it affects him by telling us about some of the tough days. There are days when Budden is a deadbeat. He doesn’t want to do anything. He doesn’t want to even get clean. His depression takes over completely and stops him from doing anything productive. Something as simple as hygiene takes a backseat. You can sort of tell how deep of a state of depression Budden was during this period.